Harrumph. I spoke too soon. The trouble with A1c Now home tests is that they aren’t completely accurate. Blood work from your doc’s office is much more reliable, and yesterday, my real A1c came back. After getting all excited that my home test showed me back in range at a 6.6%, the real results revealed that I was actually at 7.2%, barely a nudge downward from my last one at 7.3%. Ug. My doctor even wrote this beside it: “holding steady, but let’s fine tune to get under 7.”
Holding steady is the last thing I wanted. Well, an increase would be literally the last thing I wanted but after all my hard work, holding steady felt pretty crummy too. All my time at the gym, all the carb cutting, and that thing called “actually trying here, goddamit!” didn’t do a thing. And this, my friends, is the most frustrating part of diabetes. It’s the fact that you have to keep doing this every day, trying again and again, knowing it might not pay off, and having to try even harder.
One positive thing that came out of my meeting with my endo was a close analysis of my BGs, thanks to the logbook I keep for a week before each appointment. I realized two things right off the bat: 1.) I often bolus two units. Not because that’s the magic amount, but because I’m not taking the time to do the math. I might do two before a meal and then two later when I realize how many carbs I’m actually consuming, but still it’s two, and I have to face it, it’s arbitrary.
2.) I realized that I am also REAL lazy in the middle of the night. Because of Jacob’s work schedule, we’ve been eating dinner later in the evenings, usually around 8pm. I’ve blogged before about the highs I get in the wee hours of the morning – and the fact that I’m much more inclined to reset my Dexcom to a higher alarm rate and fall back asleep instead of getting up and actually fixing the problem. This has to stop, because clearly it’s affecting my overall numbers.
I’m trying to take this news as motivation. I need that next test to be under 7%. And I’m a little daunted about the next three months because the holidays are coming up and that’s a tough time to reign things under control. But I will absolutely try my best. Because that’s the deal with this diabetes thing. You have to try again!